Sunday, October 31, 2010

"The One" ... MY one! :)

It was a lovely night outside… Silence spread all around… Spooky silence!... Everyone in the house was asleep… In fact, almost everyone in the whole neighborhood had been sound asleep for hours… And that was pretty normal; it was 3 o'clock in the morning!..

I had just finished working on a presentation of mine, when I looked up at the old ticking clock in the living room. "Just on time!", I thought to myself. Although I was dead tired, I just couldn't afford to miss that important meeting I had scheduled at 3:15am that day…

I knew that he would understand if I decided to cancel it… He wouldn't be a bit annoyed, because he knows how crammed up I am these days... However, he knew quite well that every part of my being was yearning to meet him.

We had been secretly meeting up every night at around the same time, for the past two whole months; so it was almost impossible for me to suddenly stop now! I knew I had deeply fallen in love with him, and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it...

I couldn't skip meeting him; I had to thank him for what he had done that day…

Actually.. Not just that day!...

Ever since I knew him, he had been brightening up my days with happiness and contentment… I regret every single moment I've lived far away from him… He is "the one" that almost every girl on this planet dreams of…

He's like THE BEST listener in the world… You can keep on talking, whining, and even crying for hours, and he would never get bored nor decide to leave until you end the conversation, yourself, after feeling better.

Needless to talk about the cute messages he sends me every day. When I call him, he always reminds me -by the end of the call- saying: "I'm there for you whenever you need me…". And since he lives nearby, I can meet him as many times as I wish to, throughout any given day!...

He's simply a dream come true, and I'm more than blessed to have him in my life…

So, that night, I was so excited to meet him... I'll tell you why...

Two months earlier, I had been really depressed, angry and annoyed. My life wasn't heading off the way I thought it should be, and when I tried to talk about that with my friends and family members, they just couldn't grasp the idea I wanted to get across! They showed me some sympathy, and gave me some pieces of advice...

Everyone did so… But not him!

I had known him for a very long time, almost a life time!... However, I got to know him on a more personal and intimate level on a trip I had gone to last August... I had the chance to visit him at his own house there, and to visit some of the best places he likes... It was as if I was getting to know him again from the very beginning!...

When I talked to him about my problems, he knew how to listen attentively, and helped me feel at ease from the very first moment I started talking. He didn't give me any direct advice… Instead, he decided to engage me in a more interesting process that would probably help get my mind away from all of the depressing ideas I had at that time.

He promised to send me some daily messages with clues that would eventually lead me to solving my problems, and overcoming the obstacles I was facing. All what I had to do was just to stay alert so that I could understand what each clue really meant, and how it would help me in the near or far future.

Every message he sent to me was one of three kinds; either a cute comforting message to put me at ease until the next message arrives, or one that would help me take a decision, or one that would -indirectly- teach me a lesson.

He promised me that within a very short period of my receiving such messages, meeting him every single night, and answering his calls instantly whenever he calls, I would definitely start to feel relieved and peaceful. I don't know why I believed him, although I hadn't really known him that intimately before those past two months.

I thought, "Oh well… What do I have to lose?!... I'll try it anyway! At least it will help me forget about my problems for a while…"

And it really did!... Seriously, It was like MAGIC!...

Every day, for the past two months, I would wake up in the morning, feeling excited and energized! I would keep on imagining the messages and clues I'd be getting that day, eagerly awaiting their arrival.

After almost 2 weeks of doing this, and meeting him every single night to talk about what had happened all through the day, I started to feel something… Something that I cannot really describe in words… It was some kind of a peaceful yet exciting mood that had taken grip of my whole life…

I felt secure for the very first time in my life, and I actually started to trust him, unconditionally. After all, he never broke any of his promises before, and had promised me that he never will…

He had somehow become my personal guardian… my leading mentor… my patient psychiatrist… My ONE TRUE LOVE!...

But it was somehow a different kind of love… A kind that empties your whole heart of any other love, and fills it only with his love… However, surprisingly enough, this love I have for him motivates me to love everything and everyone else in my life… Strange, huh?!... But I really like it that way!

Ever since I knew him, whenever something bad happened to me throughout any given day, I would instantly think about him. "Maybe this is one of today's clues", I would tell myself. I would then work on analyzing it from so many different angles, trying to further understand it.

If I couldn't really get it, I would just let it go, FULLY TRUSTING that it must be something for my own good, or else he wouldn't have let it come my way… I would talk about it with him during our meeting at night , and he would either choose to explain it to me instantly, or just ask me to wait for some time…

Sometimes, he would even send me surprises! Cute ones… Ones that no one would imagine!… And what's even better is that some of those surprises would be nothing more than mere results of some bad-looking events that he had sent me earlier along the way… But seeing that I was fully trusting him, he would turn those bad events into the best surprises ever!

So, that night, I was so eager to meet him and thank him for the past two months… My life had changed 180 degrees, and that was all because of this relationship we've been having!... I had finally started to connect the dots and see the "big picture"… The picture of MY LIFE… And boy, what a picture that was!!! :)

I'm now writing this note to show him how grateful I am for everything he did, does, and will do for me! He is just beyond what words can describe… He is my one and only God; Allah…

And the best part is, the deal He made with me does not only apply to me. It's an offer for every existing individual on the surface of this planet!... It's your own choice to either accept this offer, and be ready for a lifetime of happiness, success, peacefulness and trust, or just let it go, and decide to take everything in your own hands…

He would only require you to answer His prayer calls once you hear them, talk and pray to Him at night when everyone else is asleep, trust Him in everything that He brings into your life, and try to keep an open heart and mind while receiving his clues through his "Holy Qur'an" messages, or simply through the daily events that He puts you in...

Having tried it, I definitely recommend this kind of relationship…

You'll never get a similar offer elsewhere, believe me! … ;) ;)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Me, Myself, and the Bouquet of Flowers

Recently, I realized I had been acting rudely towards myself, not giving her enough quality time… So, yesterday, on my way home from the dentist's, I decided to spend some time with her; just me and her, no one else!


We shared headphones, listening to our favorite soundtracks on my mobile phone, as we walked together, looking up at the dark starless-sky, and breathing as much of Cairo's polluted air as our lungs could possibly take in…


We decided to stay silent for some time, trying to establish some sort of communication with Allah, thanking Him for everything we've gone through… We wanted to let Him know how grateful and honored we are to have Him as our life mentor and guide…


We went on our way, remembering things that we've been through together, and laughing very hard inside! We now understood so many things that we had never even thought about a few days ago…


People looked at us as if we were crazy; seeing us happily smiling … They might have even mumbled some words to let us know how stupid they thought we were! However, the sound of the motivational music we were listening to was just too loud for us to hear any of their sarcastic words!


While walking, singing and laughing, we passed by a flower shop. I looked at the flowers they had on display, admired the colors of some, then looked ahead and continued on my way.


Myself stopped me. She wanted to have a closer look at the flowers. So, she asked me to join her and take a walk inside the shop to see if they really have good flowers there. I thought it was useless to do so.


I wasn't gonna buy flowers for myself! I know she LOVES them, however, I've never bought her any (except maybe once on a Valentine's Day back when we were in college! :D) because I always thought she likes to get them from others, not from me. So why go in, if we weren't gonna buy anything anyway?!


She reminded me that this was "her" quality time, so I had to shut up and silently walk in with her. And… I ended up buying her a nice costly bouquet of cute purple and white flowers. She held it carefully, close to her heart, and never had I seen her that happy before! It was the first time I had actually gotten her something she really loved!


When we walked a little bit further, listening to some more music, we passed by the falafel shop ""باباي in Mustafa El Na77aas, and she reminded me that she had wanted to eat a fries sandwich for a whole week now, but I hadn't had the time to buy it for her. I decided that since this was her day, I'll get her whatever she asks for.


We walked in with the flower bouquet, and ordered her the sandwich she wanted. No need to tell anyone about the extremely sarcastic looks we received from the workers in the shop there because of the bouquet myself was carrying! I think we can all imagine…


We finally got our sandwich and went out of the shop. She started eating it as if she hadn't eaten anything for a whole week or something. "I had really missed this delicious taste! Mmmm", said myself, getting the final bite of the sandwich. She was very happy!


I noticed she smelled the flowers every now and then, as if she was trying to keep their lovely scent inside her nose for the longest possible duration. She even did that while eating and crossing the streets! It was as if she couldn't believe I had bought her such lovely flowers.


I wanted to turn back home, but she was so excited to continue walking with me for a longer while. She felt I wasn't gonna be be able to give her such amazing quality time anytime soon especially with a busy, busy, busy schedule like the one I'm having these days! So, we carried on…


At some streets, the cars' noise was just too much for myself to take. So, I suggested we'd turn the volume of my mobile phone to the highest level, and sing out loud with the songs. Our voice won't be heard in this unbelievable noise, and no one was walking in those streets anyway; only cars were passing by.


We tried that, and it ROCKED! It was absolutely A.M.A.Z.I.N.G! We had done that together tons of times before in my car, but we never imagined it would be THAT exciting doing it in the street of Cairo!! It was so … liberating, I guess!


While walking together, and right in the middle of the song; "If Today Was Your Last Day", the Mosque on "Mustafa EL Na77aas" street caught our attention, with all the light coming out of it. Myself told me that she had a very strong urge to go there for a quick prayer.


"It won't take us more than 10 minutes, I promise", said myself. She explained that since she was having such an amazing time with me, she thought it was necessary to remember to thank Allah; for He is the one who allowed her to feel this happiness and excitement in the first place… for no clearly specific reason…


I agreed. We crossed the street and headed towards the women's prayer area. Unfortunately, it had already been closed, because it was about an hour and a half after "Al Isha" prayer! :S…


We crossed the street back again, and headed towards the supermarket. I knew I had to buy myself some ice-cream, just like I always do every time we come back from the dentist's. She had already eaten up the whole fries sandwich, however, there was always room for ice-cream! Always! :)


I bought myself a chocolate cone, and felt this strong urge to buy my mom another one. So I did…


On my way back home, mom called me up and asked where I had been. "Your car is parked right here in front of the building, so where are you?!", she said feeling worried. I told her I went to buy some ice-cream and was on my way home. So, of course I got my share of "tahzee2" for not letting her know that I was going to walk alone at night, to go buy ice-cream!!!


I took myself back home right away and gave my mom her ice-cream cone. I found my sisters still awake, so I showed them the bouquet of flowers, telling them how excited myself was to have received this gift from me!


My mom and sisters all gave me the "لا حول ولا قوة الا بالله " look, as if they were feeling sorry for me to have lost my mind! They knew nothing about the happiness and excitement I felt inside, after going on this short trip with myself…


And I guess they never will…